Originally posted 1/11/13
How seriously do you ever think about your future? I probably think about mine too much.
- What will I be doing for living in 10 years?
- Where will I be living in 25 years?
- When will HOVER BOARDS be a reality?
- Is SPAM really food?
- What will the Church look like in 50 years?
- Will my wife ever love me with a FULL beard?
These are just a few questions I ponder.
I have attended 2 funerals in the last 2 weeks. They were both GREAT men. I admire them both immensely. My hope is that I would have at least half the respect of either of them at the end of my life, and I would be happy. Friends, family, and community celebrating your existence here in this world. What a blessing.
Makes me wonder if I will make it to my 80's. Every time I go to a funeral I tell myself I'm going to write a goodbye letter...and so far I haven't. I want to, but last night Captain America came on the tube...priorities ;)
Ever want someone to hand you a detailed letter of your LIFE that tells you exactly what to do? I have! Everyday. Even right now, I should be packing for a camping trip, but I'd rather blog. I chase rabbits all day. (Maybe I should start chasing cars) I have no problem dreaming. I'm good at that. Actually, it's one of the best things I do! I can imagine the biggest mountain of a dream, the issue is climbing it. I have an entire continent of mountains in my mind, but I stall at the overwhelming thought of the trek that lies ahead.
I have this same problem when it comes to candy bars: which one do I really want, Twix or Kit Kat? M&M's or Charleston Chew? Almond Joy or Reese's? (It's easier now that I gave up sugar for the most part...I will take a bite of whatever!) Psychology calls this condition 'Choice Fatigue'. A consumer has so many choices they can't decide on one, and then abandon the purchase all together. I know this hits me all the time.
I have 'Choice Fatigue' in my soul: Teaching? Film Making? Stage Shows? Book Writing? Farming? I just want a burning bush, or a talking donkey to speak to me my PURPOSE in life. I would settle for a squirrel that speaks Spanish or a flaming cow patty with a Chinese fortune inside! Am I alone on this? How do you decide the path you follow?